it’s not true rufus, don’t listen to the hat

so let’s get back on that horse, take the road less traveled and get away from this town of claustrophobic creativity. let’s start afresh, leave the embers of this burnt out city to settle on the stunted seeds in which it has poured its misplaced trust.

let’s see from a different perspective the sun, the sky, the moon, the stars, the sea, sand, trees, clouds, train lines, road signs, motorways and slip roads, postcards, dreamy days, winters end and spring beginnings, window seats, cats eyes caught in corner glances,late night adventures, firesides and the dirt grey contrast of the high rise with lights calling us home; an orange glow snaking its path across green fields, towns and cities. drawing lines across maps to open up new sights, sounds, and the infinite possibility of the horizon.

the appleseed cast is such a good band.

i’m currently listening to my copy of the appleseed cast’s sagarmatha on vinyl on my audiophile headphones.
the song “the summer before” is currently on.
i saw them about a month ago.
they played this song.
the lyrics start with:

“out of the camera lens
is arizona
and arizona’s as good as
california”

i saw the appleseed cast about a month ago and was shooting the show and lost one of my friend’s lenses which totally sucked.
i just got back from california this week and am currently sorting through pictures of the trip.
i’m going to arizona in three weeks.

sometimes everything just comes together.

forever longing the golden sunsets.

i promise you with warm salt air,
hallowed breezes in your hair.
days on end and days long gone,
the beach and the fires and the nights are gone.
flow. tide. ebb.
road. night. sky.
sand. home.
the fair in the park,
by the sea in my heart,
is never gone.

rooms and gardens.

sight now changing.
sorrow building.
light now leaving.
our lives ending.

0109.

lawrence arms – the rabbit and the rooster
built to spill – carry the zero
sharks keep moving – wescott bay 98
kanye west – welcome to heart break
stryke – no turning back
the appleseed cast – the clock and the storm
tellison – fire
cats and cats and cats – sweet drunk everyone
tellison – hanover start clapping
dustin kensrue – pistol
saves the day – cheer
company of thieves – oscar wilde
toe – kodoku no hatsumei
toe – past and language
minilogue – we all
kanye west – get ‘em high (a-trak remix)
kanye west – throw some (cousin cole remix)
dustin kensrue – i knew you before
radiohead – four minute warning

download the mix here.

general: long hair, wearing button downs everyday, hating winter, dreaming of summer, taking things in entirely, slowing down and noticing everything.

basics: keeping warm, chicago, wild weekends, productive weeks, hanging out with friends.

work: my trip got pushed back to april which is kinda lame.
i’m trying to finish up my projects as fast as possible so i can take a vacation.

family: taking good care of them.
trying to be a really good big brother.
going snowboarding with my brother.

my parents call me pretty much every day, but about once a week the conversation shifts towards how proud they are of me and everything i’ve done.
it makes me feel really good.

social: lately i’m starting to see how much people’s priorities are out of whack.
i really love the life i lead.
i’m making great strides to improve myself in many areas.
i’m still young, but if i want to live the extravagant life that i have in my mind, i need to work harder.

lately nights have been starting later and lasting super late, but being super awesome.
i love living here.
i have really great friends, and i’m starting to get really comfortable in chicago.

romantic: i really feel like i am understanding girls a lot more lately.
more than anything, i’m learning how they work and how to make them work the way i want them to.

drink: beck’s premium light is spectacular.
as is fat tire mighty arrow.
and new glarus spotted cow.
and rumple minz + hot chocolate.
oh man.
other than that, went to the whistler a couple weeks ago and got some delicious drinks, probably best i’ve ever had.

book: i don’t really have time to read, i wish i did.
instead, when commuting i just listen to books on tape.
it’s definitely the best solution for me being short on time and still getting the material out of it.
current is eckhart tolle – the power of now.

music: i’ve been starting every day listening to side 2 of abbey road or side 1 of goddamnit on vinyl on the speakers above my shower.
it’s going pretty well.

the uk has a pretty good little indie scene going on, but some of it is really bad.
i saw a live/acoustic thrice/saves the day/get up kids/bayside show…. chris connely is a god.
i spend way too much money on records.

random: i really can’t wait til summer.

take it easy.

i must have looked like a ghost ’cause something frightened me
and since then i’ve been so good at vanishing.

and so it begins…

and so it begins…

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there are crazy old polish women at thrift stores in logan square at
8:30 at night.

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lot’s has been going on.
the remainder of my week tends to be filled up by tuesday.
i really like my friends that i see on a regular basis.
i’m still constantly learning lots about myself and others.
some shitty stuff has been coming at me from all directions, but i’m really good at finding solutions.
i’ve got a long 102 hours ahead of me, night.

doiicie.

the colonel decides on this mild grey day to bring his time into present time.
he looks on the objects on the breakfast table, calculating the moves to clear it.
he measures the distance of his chair to the table, how to push chair back and stand up without hitting his legs.
he has discovered the simple and basic discipline of d.e.
doiicie (do easy).
he becomes an insidious student of d.e.
cleaning the flat is a problem of logistics.
he knows every paper, every object; and many of them now have names.
knives, forks and spoons flash through his fingers and tinkle into drawers.
cigarette packages and crumpled papers land un-airingly in the wastebasket as a zen master can hit his target with an arrow in the dark.
d.e. is a way of doing.
d.e. simply means doing whatever you do in the easiest, most relaxed way you can manage.
which is also the quickest and most efficient way, as you will find as you advance in d.e.
you can start right now tidying up your flat.
moving your furniture or books, washing dishes, making tea, sorting papers.
don’t fumble, jerk, grab an object.
drop cool possessive fingers onto it like a gentle old cop making a soft arrest.
guide a dustpan lightly to the floor as if you were landing a plane.
learn to place an object firmly and quietly in its place and do not let your fingers move that object as they leave it there.
when you put down a cup, separate your fingers cleanly from the cup.
if you don’t catch that nervous finger that won’t let go of that handle, you may twitch hot tea across the duchess.
every object you touch is alive with your touch and your will.
don’t tug or pull at a zipper.
guide the little metal teeth smoothly along, feeling the sinuous ripples of cloth and flexible metal.
never let a poorly executed sequence pass.
there is always a reason for missing an easy toss, repeat toss, and you will find it.

surely, this is the easy way.

if you wrap your knuckles against a window jam or door, brush your leg against a desk, or catch your feet in the curled up corner of a rug, or strike a toe against a chair; go back, and repeat sequence.
you may experience a strange feeling, as if the objects are alive and hostile.
trying to twist out of your fingers, jump out at you and stub your toe or trip you.
you will be surprised how far off course you were to hit that chair, that window jam or door.
get back on course, and do it again.

no student of d.e. would have his pocket picked applying d.e. in the street.
picking his route through slower walkers.
don’t get stuck behind that baby carriage.
careful when you round that corner, don’t bump into somebody coming around the other way.
everyday tasks become painful and boring because you think of them as work, something to be fumbled and stumbled over.
overcome this block and you will find that d.e. can be applied to anything you do, even to the final discipline of doing nothing.
the easier you do it, the less you have to do.

he who has learned to do nothing with his whole mind and body will have everything done for him.
d.e.
doiicie.

alpine valley.

alpine valley.

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